In a Fog

I can't believe our little one is really here, it has all been rather surreal. Until the percocet starts wearing off....it feels pretty real then. :)

I am getting as much rest as possible and the kids are back at school this morning...life goes on as normal when baby #4 arrives.

She is still looking really pink and healthy and is nursing like a champ, which is great. The six year gap between Laura and Sarah is making me feel rather rusty in the newborn department, but the nurses have been super sweet when I remind them I might need a little refresher.

Her name seems perfect for her. It always feel weird to me the first couple of days after naming a child, it seems like a lot of pressure to give them a name they will use the rest of their life. She looks like a Sarah to us.

In all of our kid's middle names we have tried to incorporate some sort of family name. Jane was the name of Adam's paternal grandmother, so we wanted to honor her in that way. My maternal grandmother, that many of you knew, who I just lost a few years ago was Janet. She once told me I better not use Janet one day. :) So we just dropped the "t" and we can still honor her.

That is one of the hard things about having Sarah. It is hard to think about some of the family members that have passed away since my last birth. How I wish they could be here to call and give the news and share pictures and "war stories" with. Most especially my grandmother Janet who I affectionately called "Nana". She was my hero, the mother of six and we had so much in common it was unreal. I have also lost two dear aunts both who would have celebrated with me in this time of new life. I guess that is the hard part of growing up and time passing by, there are times to celebrate and times to mourn and they are both unavoidable.

I will just smile every time I look at this sweet little girl and think about the bright future she has ahead of her.

I am going to try to get some rest between all of the different people that come in and out of the room. It has been so fun sharing this experience with so many of you.

Have a wonderful day. I hope you are not rushing to get your taxes done.